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worth-crying?
I cried a lot and being a somber-junk during these 2 weeks but at the end I just didn't know the reason why I cried.
Did I cry for myself? Did I cry for you? Did I cry for somebody else out there?
Here, I'm trying out to find out. Let me just spit them out

1.
I live with pressures from both of my parents just because I'm the only child and I can't do anything but pretend to be strong and able to carry on.
Having a mom whose life is depending on the very expensive medicines, dad whose very asian-- I'm emphasizing on the strictness and very particular about not giving up, are not that easy and it forced me to do hundreds time heavier weights than normal people..
I'm feeling like I'm being a beast of burden, carrying too much weights on my shoulders--correction : we, X5. We got 2 curriculums which we have to balance each another, the national and international. They made it harder for us to concentrate to our chosen major, didn't they?
As a kid, we swallow every single words and nod to every single order. We did protest. But what are we?

2.
This includes my personal social-life. Am I being too sensitive? Or am I being too kind to you?

3.
Something

4.
Something that's even more negligible

HELPING HANDS

without several distractors&loveable peeps, i will really get extremely bored to death of my daily routines. It's all wake up-shower-school-course-home-sleep-repeat. seeing from the facts that i'm the only child, it's pretty impossible to go out every saturday and chill out.
last 2 weeks were the climax. i got all messed up and lack of sleep. But i did get a lot of helping hands.
Friends&Boyfriend did sway away my drowsiness-- even if i showed up and yawned all the time in the morning. At last, they were all succeeded in pulling up the corner of my lips, forming a smile or even a grin.

i don't hate the fact that i am the dumbest kid when it comes to Science. i got my drawing skills in return

Long Live History&Geo!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

made an icon, a bit creepier than usual. watch out for the eyeballs moving

A TURNING POINT

When Dad went rage after seeing my IGCSE report card, he, for all of the almighty god & goddesses, has vowed to seize my whole facilities--computer, cellphone, and all the gadgets. Pretending to be a little bit ignorant about the chaos, i decided to participate in the HETADAY 2010 at La Porchetta Grand Indonesia, 24 october 2010. GOD BLESS THE HETAFANS!

hey, my EX-fella

i just wanna contribute my recent feelings of you, be calm, yea?

well, i'm terribly sorry about 'what happened' to us several weeks ago. and now i just wanna say that i don't care anymore about EVERYTHING about your lovelife, your acts, your things. that doesn't mean i just say 'YES' and forgive whatever you've done. to forgive someone doesn't mean to forget about what has happened. cheer up :)